Saturday, August 23, 2008
Sometimes punishment comes in ways you never thought of...
Its been almost 5 plus months since she left, my heart still hurts because she was special, unique and honestly, the one... But it has to be said, people like me never seem to appreciate the good things around and only when i've lost them, do i realise that i took everything for granted...
I don't know can things ever come back or whether i'll have that another chance again because sometimes i think and i know many others also think that i do not deserve another chance. I hurt her alot alot, and even more so when i didn't even manage to do the fundamental things as a boyfriend right, like being possessive, loving her too much till she suffocated and sometimes i just wonder what on earth did she ever saw in me anyway... All i know was to love her alot and sometimes, all she wanted was my honest opinion because that could help her in her life but i didn't do it cause i though i was a saint, and that love can change everything bad to good...
I miss her smell, her beautiful face, her lovely smile, her fabulous taste in fashion, her love for singing, designing and importantly, her love for life... I held her back so much and though now i've grown since being apart from her, i wonder, whether she would ever believe me again to grant me another chance... I loved her alot but i also hurt her alot and no amount of sorry can ever change the fact that i hurt her and when she forgives, it only goes to show how good she really really is...
I can never find someone so in sync with me nor can i ever find someone so special again and if anyone's to blame, it is me, i can only blame myself and no one else... I really dunno what to say at this point because i feel so lost, i really love Xinyi still, very very much and i'm sorry to all her friends that i hurt her and i wun blame you for cursing me... i'll just stay here and wait for her and hopefully she'll come back again and i'll shoulder any burden, guilt or anything bad just to have that one loving day with her again....
If i had known the last time i saw you would be the last time, i would have stopped to memorize your face, the way you moved and everything about you... If i had known the last time we kissed would be the last time, i never would have stopped...
I don't know can things ever come back or whether i'll have that another chance again because sometimes i think and i know many others also think that i do not deserve another chance. I hurt her alot alot, and even more so when i didn't even manage to do the fundamental things as a boyfriend right, like being possessive, loving her too much till she suffocated and sometimes i just wonder what on earth did she ever saw in me anyway... All i know was to love her alot and sometimes, all she wanted was my honest opinion because that could help her in her life but i didn't do it cause i though i was a saint, and that love can change everything bad to good...
I miss her smell, her beautiful face, her lovely smile, her fabulous taste in fashion, her love for singing, designing and importantly, her love for life... I held her back so much and though now i've grown since being apart from her, i wonder, whether she would ever believe me again to grant me another chance... I loved her alot but i also hurt her alot and no amount of sorry can ever change the fact that i hurt her and when she forgives, it only goes to show how good she really really is...
I can never find someone so in sync with me nor can i ever find someone so special again and if anyone's to blame, it is me, i can only blame myself and no one else... I really dunno what to say at this point because i feel so lost, i really love Xinyi still, very very much and i'm sorry to all her friends that i hurt her and i wun blame you for cursing me... i'll just stay here and wait for her and hopefully she'll come back again and i'll shoulder any burden, guilt or anything bad just to have that one loving day with her again....
If i had known the last time i saw you would be the last time, i would have stopped to memorize your face, the way you moved and everything about you... If i had known the last time we kissed would be the last time, i never would have stopped...
Sunday, January 20, 2008
A Little Late...
This picture is kinda late actually, i got my first car, a cool amber suzuki swift 1.2L! I'm really very happy that my mum help me with it and although its tough to maintain it, i'm glad i have my mum to help me with the costs, thanks again mum! I got it on the 28th of December, haha, i super love it! Thank god for everything in my life... He made it all happen...
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Our Anniversary!
How time flies, another year has gone and we waved goodbye to 2007 and said hello to 2008! Its been a tremendous year for me and xinyi as we battled arguments and quarrels to emerge as better individuals and of course, be ever more loving... i finally started school in SIM and it has been a joy to be able to study again, i'm also working in ishop cineleisure selling apple products which is very important because i have a new burden now, my new car! haha, i finally realised my dream with my 1st car, a brand new suzuki swift 1.2, cool amber colour... Hee, thank god and praise the lord for everything! This year, i decided to bring xinyi to a little escapade in nearby island, that is, sentosa. I brought her to siloso beach resort and trust me, its the most beautiful place i've seen, the swimming pool had a man made waterfall beside it, our hotel was right beside the beach and the best part is, it was right beside cafe del mar where i had arranged dinner for the both of us! After arriving at sentosa, we went to check in and then we went to the beach to suntan a little and swim in the sea, we then went for more swimming in the swimming pool before we went back to our room to rest. We had a brisk walk to 7-11 to get some snacks, then we went to cafe del mar for our dinner! The dinner was great, if anyone of you guys go there, you must try the roasted spring chicken with herbs, its perfect and the rice that comes with was cooked so perfectly and had a fabulous tasty gravy over it! Its so good that i dunno how to describe to you guys... hEh, you have to try it to know it... We then chilled out to my favourite house music and lastly, we went back to our room to have some nice ice wine bought by xinyi in the comfort of our own jaccuzzi in our hotel room... This was the most beautiful anniversary i ever had and ever will have because everything was perfect, from the ambience to the music to the food and to the company... What else can i ask for in my life? I have so many pictures to put up, hope you guys can share my joy... My joy of being with the most beautiful girl in the world, the most understanding and definitely the most perfect girl i ever can have... I love you xinyi! :-)
Friday, November 02, 2007
A fun filled 31st Oct and 1st Nov!
Its been nothing short of brilliant, stupendous, adventurous, partying, surprises and love from my frens and love ones for my 23rd birthday this year. Everything started on the 31st of October, at MOS where i held a table for my army frens Balo, Hongxu, Jason Sum, good fren Richard, my iShop colleagues Mike, Jane, James, Max, Graeme, my poly frens ghim Khoon, Adeline, Ronald and of course the most VVIP of all, my dear dear, Xinyi. First of all, i would like to thank Mike because without him, i wouldn't have been able to shift from a table at Pure to a table at the VIP lounge in the Main Arena. He also opened a bottle for me which for a colleague i know for just 2 over months, is really very touching and very brotherly love, thanks bro! Seriously, i'll kiss you if i could, haha! We had lots of drinks that night, there were 2 bottles of Vodka, 1 bottle of Champagne, 12 shots of sex on the beach, 1 bottle of Malibu but the important thing is, within a hour, something happened!
Ah Sum forced down 3 cups of vodka neat on me, half a vodka redbull, 1 sex on the beach shot, a little bit of red wine and a waterfall blaster from Mike and i was going bonkers! I kept sipping down on the Malibu pineapple also which i think ultimately, killed me! haha, i had no dance at all, all i did was drink and i was drunk barely 30 mins after midnight.. haha, but i must thank Ghimz and Ronald who looked after me, the stranger who helped feed me lime slices and carried me out by himself, he's a saver man, god bless him! And thanks to my poly frens, i have a Cristiano Ronaldo Biography book! I was drunk, and had a bad hangover the next day but i'm still glad i had that party, it was mad happenning, and looking by the pics i have, everyone had fun, even my gf, which made me feel great to see everyone had fun. i retired back at her home that day, she helped me up herself!
On the 1st of November, my dearest Xinyi gave me her presents, a card she made, cut, designed by herself with a little $380 voucher which she also made, designed and authorised included inside, i cried, yes, i'm a crybaby but who wouldn't, it was so sweet that i suspected ants were crawling towards the card and voucher! It was lovely, very lovely, she brought me out for a shopping trip to use the voucher she made and we ended up buying a white shirt and card holder from Muji, a cardigan jacket from Giordano concepts and i made her but some lovely shoes she was looking for, it was great shopping with her! It was so so so much fun! I love shopping with her, every single minute of it! But that wasn't the end, she brought me to Chijmes where we ate at Carnivore, a brazilian churruscaria restaurant where its a buffet, u sit down, take a plate and fill it with side dishes and wait for the chunks of beef, chicken, lamb, fish, ham to be served! But my favourite which i beg all of you to try, its the chicken heart, i think i ate close to 20, Xinyi can vouch for that, honest! And after the hearty meal, you must must die die try the warm grilled pineapple which justs melts in your mouth and letting the warm juice flow down your throat, wah, madness man! haha! Xinyi then gave me a 2nd gift, self made dolls of me and her and a little self made cupcake! All HAND-SEWN!
Goodness! She's fantastic! She justs never fails to amaze me every single year, i love her, i really seriously do. God bless her.... Her mum gave me an hogbao also which i have never received from any gf's parents before, which i felt so touched, not because of the money, but because the mother recognises me and to my thinking, i think she dotes on me alot also, she is always lending me her car and now this hongbao, i really think she's wonderful and i thank god for meeting Xinyi and her loving family... Honestly, i wish i can strike 4D or the ToTo or the Big Sweep because i want to marry Xinyi, this wonderful girl who never fails to amaze me, surprise me, love me, care for me, is patient with me, can cook, bake, wash, sew, design, has same ideas for businesses and most importantly, a beautiful who doesn't mind being with a normal guy like me. I'm glad i decided to change for her n not be so possessive anymore, i'm still working hard at being the perfect bf and i promise you dear, i will...
The most touching statement she wrote on the card... " If i every had to choose again, i would still choose to be with you", and this is despite all our arguments and quarrels we had... I have nothing to say, if i dun get to marry this girl, it really justs means i dun have the luck because i am certain that she is the one i'm aiming for and thats a fact and facts, leave no room for possibilities....
Ah Sum forced down 3 cups of vodka neat on me, half a vodka redbull, 1 sex on the beach shot, a little bit of red wine and a waterfall blaster from Mike and i was going bonkers! I kept sipping down on the Malibu pineapple also which i think ultimately, killed me! haha, i had no dance at all, all i did was drink and i was drunk barely 30 mins after midnight.. haha, but i must thank Ghimz and Ronald who looked after me, the stranger who helped feed me lime slices and carried me out by himself, he's a saver man, god bless him! And thanks to my poly frens, i have a Cristiano Ronaldo Biography book! I was drunk, and had a bad hangover the next day but i'm still glad i had that party, it was mad happenning, and looking by the pics i have, everyone had fun, even my gf, which made me feel great to see everyone had fun. i retired back at her home that day, she helped me up herself!
On the 1st of November, my dearest Xinyi gave me her presents, a card she made, cut, designed by herself with a little $380 voucher which she also made, designed and authorised included inside, i cried, yes, i'm a crybaby but who wouldn't, it was so sweet that i suspected ants were crawling towards the card and voucher! It was lovely, very lovely, she brought me out for a shopping trip to use the voucher she made and we ended up buying a white shirt and card holder from Muji, a cardigan jacket from Giordano concepts and i made her but some lovely shoes she was looking for, it was great shopping with her! It was so so so much fun! I love shopping with her, every single minute of it! But that wasn't the end, she brought me to Chijmes where we ate at Carnivore, a brazilian churruscaria restaurant where its a buffet, u sit down, take a plate and fill it with side dishes and wait for the chunks of beef, chicken, lamb, fish, ham to be served! But my favourite which i beg all of you to try, its the chicken heart, i think i ate close to 20, Xinyi can vouch for that, honest! And after the hearty meal, you must must die die try the warm grilled pineapple which justs melts in your mouth and letting the warm juice flow down your throat, wah, madness man! haha! Xinyi then gave me a 2nd gift, self made dolls of me and her and a little self made cupcake! All HAND-SEWN!
Goodness! She's fantastic! She justs never fails to amaze me every single year, i love her, i really seriously do. God bless her.... Her mum gave me an hogbao also which i have never received from any gf's parents before, which i felt so touched, not because of the money, but because the mother recognises me and to my thinking, i think she dotes on me alot also, she is always lending me her car and now this hongbao, i really think she's wonderful and i thank god for meeting Xinyi and her loving family... Honestly, i wish i can strike 4D or the ToTo or the Big Sweep because i want to marry Xinyi, this wonderful girl who never fails to amaze me, surprise me, love me, care for me, is patient with me, can cook, bake, wash, sew, design, has same ideas for businesses and most importantly, a beautiful who doesn't mind being with a normal guy like me. I'm glad i decided to change for her n not be so possessive anymore, i'm still working hard at being the perfect bf and i promise you dear, i will...
The most touching statement she wrote on the card... " If i every had to choose again, i would still choose to be with you", and this is despite all our arguments and quarrels we had... I have nothing to say, if i dun get to marry this girl, it really justs means i dun have the luck because i am certain that she is the one i'm aiming for and thats a fact and facts, leave no room for possibilities....
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Sushi Outing!
We decided to go shopping and kia kia today! And my darling brought me to a brilliant place to eat great japanese food! Ichiban Boshi! Must try the vanilla ice cream and red beans and dumplings dessert!
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
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